This is How I Feel

The very first time I read your name, saw your face, and witness your smile. You painted that smile in my head and I been carrying the stains here in my heart.
I care about your stress and your mood. I’m here to show you and to make you feel how much I care about your feelings.
I can’t make you want me but there’s nothing you can do to stop me from wanting you.
I may be able to read you mind and I don’t mind how difficult it is to read your heart as long as in the end I am your marking point to start.
I feel you're so insensitive who doesn’t know how much you groaning my heart but I don’t care keeping this annoying sense for you’re the only one can’t stop my heart from beating.
Why can’t you understand how much I wanted to be on your arms? You’re the only one I been longing for, the only one hurting me where no one did ever see.
I hate you’re insensitiveness but don’t ask me why am still here keeping you as mine because even I, can’t explain the power you have deep within my heart.
I am tired to say I love you because you knew whatever I said is true and all I know is I hate myself for loving you more than the words I know.